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I doubt if anyone read this post

A Brief Explanation of What Happened To Me

Alhamdulillah hari ni guwa dah setel dah satu tanggungjawab yang dah 3 bulan guwa pegang dari bulan julai hari tu, iaitu pakai kereta member.

dia punya dugaan tu tak payah citer la, memang macam2 la jadik, guwa malas nak citer sebab panjang sangat tapi sebab guwa dah hantar balik kereta tu tadi so boleh la guwa bukak citer sikit. mengalahkan awek betul kereta ni kalau buat hal. pening kepala guwa

first day pinjam minyak habis tengah jalan, pastu sebulan kemudian kreta mati kat simpang roundabout. kene tolak kreta sejauh 2km, nasib ade member guwa tolong.

pastu masa bawak pergi ipoh kononnya nak pakai gi kerja, first day dah eksiden pulak!


pastu tuuuuutt sebulan kemudian guwa dah berazam nak chow.

start kereta awal pagi masa nak bertolak, kereta buat hal xnak start pulak. melayang lagi ratus2. hanat betol.

kesimpulan nya memang seribu habis kat kereta tu. memang berterima kasih la guwa dekat keretaa tu sebab ajar erti kehidupan yang begitu kejam sekali.

oh ya. guwa kena letak jugak kos2 guwa bawak balik kereta tu dari ipoh ke shah alam then ke melaka

Ipoh to Shah Alam
Minyak RM20, Tol rm26.30

Shah Alam to Simpang Ampat
Minyak Rm20, tol rm23 sumthing la

pastu balik nek ktm daari tampin ke padang jawa Rm14.80


Tammat~

Anugerah Terindah Yang Pernah Kumiliki

Indeed September is always the most fucked up month of the year

Yeap. I endorse it.

2009: Worse haircut, ever!
2010: Broke up, Hurt my head.
2011: Broke up, again
2012; Heart break. mother fuck.
2013: Rejected!
2014: My cat died as I leave my home.
2015: A quiet month
2016: Phone got stolen.
2017: Alone. This one was cool.
2018; Got into car crash. Fuckingn  Hell!

So thats it, 9 years of zack-got-fucked-up-by-his-birthday moment folks.

chow!

September please don't f*cked up again as always!

Just less than I a week I'm gonna start my new job at Ipoh, Perak. Will discuss about it on the next post. Just wanted to say that lately I didn't understand what my desire is; What is life? Happiness? Success?

I don't know if that was necessary in this cruel world by the way. Not feeling depressed though, just a mindful thinking.

Also, being disconnected through a social world makes me feel more secure with my value of life. Probably you wouldn't understand. But ever since that day when I despise those who I love the most, I realized about how many times fly that I've wasted on all those stupid desires.

a total bullshit to be honest.

End.

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Before this, I did not realized it.

That sometimes the thing that I do love and adore the most,

Will became the very thing that I hated,

You just never know it until you know what despair is.

Farewell: (Life is Strange Before The Storm Bonus Episode Review)

And so today, I'm gonna write about my thoughts after playing this game, which the bonus episode was released a couple hours ago. So I download and played it, finished it in an hour. So here's my POV on whats really happening between Max and Chloe.

(SPOILERS ALERT) you better play it first before read it. Or not.

The thing is, when I was playing LIS first season, I was wondering why the fuck Chloe was so upset at certain moment towards Max when they arguing about something. This does quite often happen when I decided not to stand with her (such as side with his Stepdick David about the pot). Chloe say something about "Bailing me again" at Max.

I really meant it. Why the fuck?

And this Blue-dyed girl really makes me mad at the episode when they were breakfast together at Chloe's house, Chloe just randomly shouting at her mom about Max siding with her again like WTF is wrong with you girl?

But then it was all revealed at this very moment. The truth. Of why Chloe Price; the girl that was full of joy has become a sensitive and rebellious teenager. So here's the spoiler for FAREWELL episode:

At the end of the episode, I choose to tell Chloe that Max was going to Seattle in 3 days. She did know about it, and she also was trying her best to distract Max by playing the pirate treasure hunt. When I play this episode I really thought that Chloe had known that William had died in an car accident. But then the fucked up moment comes hitting them hard.

the moment Chloe says that it was okay for them to go separate ways, the cops and her mom arrived, just to tell Chloe about the bad news.

TALK ABOUT THE FUCKED UP MOMENT. They sure to have pick the right moment. No wonder la Chloe was so sad. She was left alone when she needed her friends the most. Especially when Max and her family went right to Seattle, for the very last moment.

That really hit the emotion really hard.

Kalau la aku di tempat dia, tak boleh bayangkan ow macam mana rasa perit dia tu. Siapa tak sedih bhai, kau hilang orang tersayang, lepas tu member kau bergantung takda.

Ego Itu Aku

"Perlukah aku telan ego untuk seseorang yang juga ego sepertiku?"

Soalan senang,
Tetapi rumit bagi akal cetek seperti ku untuk memprosesnya,
Ini bukan soal pengetahuan am seperti rajah di atas,
Ini soal hati,
Yang dahulu engkau pernah kecewakan.

Ku Katakan Dengan Indah

There is no fucking way we'll be together.

Me And You.

People come and go in our life. But..

When did it all go wrong?

2018 remarks

Kesepian. Melanda.

Siapakah yang sudi menghulurkan tangan kepada guwa di saat guwa perlukan pertolongan?

Entahlah.